New Year, New Me… Sort Of
I knew I’d feel weird once I turned 25 – I was in denial and freaking out and saying I was going to a have a ‘mid twenties crisis’… and it seems to kind of be coming true. But I need to calm the hell down.
I think the things about turning 25 is that now I’m heading more towards 30 and then 40 and then I’m old and my life is over. I just have no idea where I’m going to head; like, I don’t know what I want to plan for the rest of my life and shouldn’t I know already?
So actually the New Years resolutions that I’ve been thinking about are actually not really about going forwards, they’re kind of about going backwards. I want to recapture some of my priorities that have gotten lost along the way and feel like a happier, more-together person, going into my 26th year.
I want to start looking after my body again
I know this is a normal one that everyone says at New Year’s: I’m going to lose loads of weight blah blah. Well I don’t want to lose weight, I just want to tone up again and get back to where I was in a more enjoyable way.
This year was full of knee injuries which have slowed me down since I came back to England off the ship, and I’ve gradually lost all my work from the past two years that I worked so hard for.
It’s easy to fall out of it and hard to get back into, but I want to get back into it. Not just for my physical well-being, but my mental; I just feel better when I exercise. So let’s get back on it in the New Year. No excuses!
Spend less on frivolous things
I am a monster for buying cups of coffee and eating out. Oh, and chocolate and bottles of wine are my kryptonite.
They may all sound like little things but they do add up and I need to be stricter with myself so that I can afford nice things in the future. Like a house…
I want to excel at my job
I’ve recently changed career paths (into the world of blogging for a living actually, which is very exciting!) and while it is something that I generally know a bit about, I want to know everything about it.
I want to learn new skills, gain knowledge in different areas and do a good job. So this next year is a time of learning and I want to start swotting up.
On the same note, I want to honour the life I left behind
I have always sung and acted my way through life and it was my total intention to do it as a career forever. So to not be pursuing that anymore, doesn’t make me regret it but I don’t want to cast aside that part of me.
I want to start loving performing again, without resenting it for the trials and tribulations that the career presents and the doubts in your talent that it gives you.
I’ll take it back to basics and start slowly by singing in my flat and then maybe a bit of karaoke, join an amateur dramatics group and maybe try do a few gigs. Whatever I can do to start enjoying it and rebuild my confidence again, I want to do it.
I want to find more time for this blog
When you work full time, it’s hard to find the time to get all the things done that you need to do. Recently, I’ve been working 6 days a week so have only had one day to do everything that you would normally spread out over a couple of days, which makes for a stressful day off.
So obviously my blog hasn’t been getting any of the TLC it needs. When I spend my day writing and staring at a computer screen, I want to come home and just stare into space, instead of right back at another computer screen.
So this next year I’d like to find more time for me. I could set aside a night a week to write a post or do some maintenance or do a mini shoot. (‘Cos blogs nowadays are big productions that require flawless instagram accounts, images photoshopped to perfection and paid work with brands.)
I just want to have this little space to write about whatever the fuck I want and feel proud of what I produce, and hopefully, inspire someone else to do the same, or go to an awesome cafe that I’ve been to or watch that Netfllix series I’ve been raving about for ages.
Make new friends
I have a lot of friends and I’m close with my family, but when we’re all getting older and moving all over the place, it can be hard to have a regular social life. Maybe that’s just a part of adulthood, but I would like to meet new people and make new friends and have more choices should I want to go for a drink after work, or go to the cinema or for a coffee.
Everyone’s so busy nowadays that it’s hard for schedules to line up! So sometimes you can wait for weeks to be able to meet up with your friends and so, instead, you just sit in your flat like a lemon, drinking wine by yourself. It’s much more fun with someone else!
Plus, it’s so hard to meet new people and make new friends once you get older. I don’t want to stop meeting new, interesting people. So bring on new people in my life; the more, the merrier!
The list could probably go on for New Years Resolutions, but I’ll stop there for now.
I think the general gist with everybody’s resolutions and hopes for the new year, is that you’ll better your quality of life by improving your happiness and acceptance with yourself.
It’s a lot easier said than done, but if you don’t strive for improvement on the things you’re unhappy with then you just plateau and are stuck in the same place forever. New Year’s Resolutions are a positive thing and we should always strive to be positive and hope that there is a brighter future out there for us all.
Happy New Year! 🙂