Anybody who suffers from spells of anxiety will know what a royal pain in the ass it is. It can ruin your day… your week… your month… or even your year. Or, hell, every year in some way!
I guess no one told you life was gonna be this way…
I guess I’ve always been an anxious person. I had panic attacks quite a bit as a teenager and growing up I would be of a nervous disposition at times. But all it took was one event when I was 19-years-old to (to put it bluntly) really fuck up my life. And I’ve never been the same since. This, ladies and gentlemen, is called post-traumatic stress disorder, for those of you lucky enough not to have experienced it.
I’ve done everything by the book to try to tackle it. You know… therapy for years, hypnotherapy, hoping that time will make it easier and just plain old ‘sucking it up and getting on with it’. But yet, nearly 7 years on, I still have to deal with it.
Even 7 years on, it can feel as fresh as the day it started.
So I ask, do you ever get over your anxiety?
Does time really heal everything?
When I realized that I was at a five-year point since my problems began and I was relapsing, I cried uncontrollably because I felt like I was losing the battle.
‘If this is never going to go away then how can I go on? What is the point in a life that is constantly plagued by my own mind ruining it?’
It seems like every time things are fine, the inner demons in my brain come creeping out of the woodwork. All it takes is a little trigger and I’m out of action. It’s exhausting!
I tell you, if you suffer from anxiety, you are not a weak person at all. You are one of the strongest people out there because to battle your own brain every day is really really hard.
It can be very easy to cut yourself off when you’re in the throes of it, and sometimes that’s what you need. But you can’t sit and wallow in self-pity.
The only thing that you will have all of your life is your body and your mind, so treat it kindly. We all want to save up for a holiday and that dress we saw in Topshop, but investing in your health is so much more worthwhile.
I’m booking myself in for some hypnotherapy to see if I can nip this spell in the bud for a while longer. If you need help then you need to go looking for it. Paying for therapy may not be cheap, but if it is necessary then you have to do it eventually. My health is way more important than a night out drinking and a new dress that I didn’t need anyway.
You can always earn more money but you can’t gain back the days you lost feeling unhappy.
So the answer to my question… do you ever get over your anxiety?
Probably not. But you can always help yourself. You are strong and sometimes the strongest thing you can do is admit that you are struggling and reach out for help.
If you need any ideas for managing your anxiety on a daily basis, check out my recent blog with some tips for coping.
Don’t wait to be okay. Help yourself now. There is no day but today.